Addendum To the Codecil

I have to backtrack on the wording regarding being fed up with the Grind enough to withdraw.

The broken paradigms have not gone away. I'm back at the Grind and I have new experiences that prove the crap is alive and thriving.

It's  as deeply embedded as it ever was thanks to the disappointing sameness that is Human Nature.

But if, like me, you were to focus on the goals that staying in the Grind can earn you, the  general disgusting-ness  becomes FAR, far easier to endure.

Hence, I am enduring because what I gained was freedom from the debt I carried.


Hey, for now I am still pretty healthy.Who knows what is to come?

For 10 Years

A long-held debt is gone today. That balance got large because of personal mis-steps and unexplained avoidances.

I have been on hold since it was created, as making money was tough for a number of reasons before I retired.

I have had three financial breakdowns in my life. They have eaten up a third of my life.

But I'm debt-free now. I'm also old now.

The first thing I did was cry. For a lot of time gone by. And for the relief of finally being done with it.

At the same time I'm aware that I can't just pick up and resume as though nothing has changed. 

A LOT is changed. Some of it can't be recovered from.

Now, I'm trying to figure out what's supposed to come next.If there IS a next.