Personal Effects of Covid 19 Part 2

 I am now changed. Some of it as a result of being asked to self-isolate to protect myself and the public while COVID meanders through the human landscape.

Some as a result of the changes I have experienced as a result of extended retirement and a realization that I don't need to be quite as "busy" and self-important as I have always been.

It was tough. My Step-Father said I'd always be useless. His criticism was my fiercest motivator. 

I did some amazing things in my life with his whip at my back.

And right now, while I am aware that my contribution can be as keen and useful as it ever was if I call it into play, I don't need to prove my prowess as much as I once did. 

My blood pressure is the  lowest it's ever been.

My need to go-go-go for the sake of making my mark is mostly all done. 

I miss that me. But I'm grateful I don't need to be that me as much anymore.

Weird that it took a pandemic to see and modify that me. Nice that I don't need him as much.